Sometimes God just has to make it real clear for me. Sometimes he points directly to the sin in my heart. Sometimes it hurts. Every time…he’s right.
My heart has been harder than usual lately. There are real circumstances that have attributed to this, but there are no excuses.
My hard heart is impatient. It’s selfish, busy, and tired.
There is one beautiful, 7-year-old girl that is most affected by my hardened heart. Yes, at times, she is difficult, at times I have to do the hard part of parenting. Last week it was removing all but two pairs out of her shoe collection-attempting to battle ungratefulness. Who knows what it will be this week?!
But there’s a line between the struggles of good and effective parenting and just being crappy towards our children. It’s ok to be honest here, right? There has not been enough slack in my rope of grace and mercy for her. So what did God lovingly do yesterday during worship?
Well… he wrecked me. He had the worship band play the song that sweet Lucy has sang enthusiastically from the bottom of her heart since she was three years old. While the band played, I sang along, eyes closed, tears falling. All I was able to see was Lucy, hair in the wind, arms stretched out, praising her good and faithful Savior.
This is how God always sees Lucy-out of eyes of complete love and mutual adoration. No matter her attitude, mistakes or behavior, “His love never fails, never gives up, never runs out on me!”
May we see those around us through the eyes of our Savior, please Lord, give us your vision.