Looking back with gratefulness

One life practice I try to implement is intentional “looking back,” and reflecting on the perfection that is God’s timing. It’s actually the way I choose to end a counseling relationship with clients as well. I love witnessing the moment when people realize that God was literally with them in the storm, it’s definitely a sacred experience.

I also believe that there is great power and freedom to be gained when we set our eyes and hearts on how faithful God has been to us, even (and especially) in the midst of difficult circumstances that may bring us heartache and pain. Here’s what I mean:

I made the decision to quit fast-pitch softball during my freshman year in college. The game was no longer fun, hadn’t been for years. In fact, it it felt like work,  and undesirable work given the college environment I found myself in. If I’m completely honest, I never should have chosen to play in college, however, if I had quit in high school the items below may not have happened when they did, if at all. And that, I can’t imagine.

  1. Boyfriend of 4 years broke up with me, leaving me with feelings of abandonment, anger, and complete devastation (Namely, right where God wanted me to be).
  2. So I moved home, and that’s where God connected me with a group of friends that still to this day encourage my heart and cheer me on (although now our gatherings include our cute ban of kiddos!).
  3. I started working for Grace Covenant Church in the evenings after my college classes, where I met my good friend and mentor, Sandy and also became a part of the heartbeat of our church, “Loving God and serving others.” Which to this day makes up a lot of who I am and what I love to do.
  4. Met a counselor named Pam, who introduced me to Gordon-Conwell Theological Seminary, where I would begin work on my Masters in Christian Counseling just a couple years later.
  5. Since I was now around home, my Dad asked me to intern with his company for the summer – enter in…Palmer. If I had known I would have won the husband lottery, I would probably have quite softball a lot sooner!
  6. Not long after Palmer and I started dating, my parents decided to separate. The way he loved me through this heartache could have only been as result of the work of God.
  7. Soon after we were married, we learned Miss Lucy was on the way. I just so happened to be knee-deep in learning about child development, family systems theory, and the life of Jesus. In other words, God was equipping me with knowledge, as Palmer and I were diving into this first-time parenting thing.

I could go on and on, but I think you get my point. When we are faced with trials, are forced into making difficult decisions, experience heartache and devastation…He is with us, and He will use everything we experience to bring about His plan for our lives to display His glorious nature.

I realize this is an unconventional post, my hope is that you will be encouraged today to reflect on God’s perfect timing in your own life, so that He may fill you with the joy at the work of His hands.

Abiding today,


ps: softball is fun again…and thank you Mom and Dad for loving me through it’s ups and downs.

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Wife, Mom to two young girls, Counselor, Cook, Athlete, and Follower of Jesus

3 thoughts on “Looking back with gratefulness

  1. Look at that perfect form! You still got it!

    It’s truly incredible how perfect Gods timing is. E and I have experienced this time and time again throughout or lives. Learning to be present and trust his timing is challenging but so rewarding!
    Love you Hay Hay ❤


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